VERY Off topic, please read
Hey, as i said...VERY VERY off topic, but i want to let everyone here (Espically the AtlasRR people) know how i am.
I lost the girl that meant everything to me, my girlfriend of 4
months...featured here: www.siderodscass.741.com and some more
here: www.siderodspics.741.com
I know, i know, i know...i need to change the site to Ex.
Girlfriend, but i'm to depressed to do that right now...
After we broke up tuesday night on the phone, i went for a walk. I'm
already kinda sick, and i went out last night (after punching the
bathroom door while in tears) in the rain in shorts and a tee-shirt,
and walked about a mile along the track, sat down on the rail and
cryed. I then walked back along that mile, and tried to cross into
my field. I knew that there was once a fence there, but it appeared
to be gone, so i tried to cross it. BIG mistake! My left foot
stepped ontop of the fence (chickenwire and barbed razor wire)...i
thought it was solid ground and lifted my right foot, as it swung
forward, my left foot sank through, cutting my leg to pieces and
with that, my right foot caught, throwing me forward. Both ankles
locked and cracked...i sprained both of them. I landed hard on my
right wrist, fracturing it in 2 places. I came home in tears,
sitting in my room, shaking and in tears...cold but the heater was
on. I never felt so alone.
Then wednesday, while cutting a piece of pipe, the saw slipped, the
blade itself didn't cut me, but the brace across the top of the
hacksaw dropped hard against my hand and pressed it against the
vice. i got 2 razor-sharp cuts to the bone on my middle and ring
finger of my left hand. (2 cuts on each finger)
Normally i would know better then to place my hand as i did, but i
just wasnt thinking.
Now today, i'm talkin to Cassie...she still loves me like a friend, but nothing
more. That helped, a bit. Her's and my best friend is somewhat
fogivin me, but not entirely...hoepfully...that will change soon.
My other best friend i havn't talked to yet...her birthday is this
saturday...i hope she still wants me to go.
An update as well to the status of me eatting and sleeping...in the
last 50 hours, i have eaten 1 sandwich (with about 10 bucks worth of
meat on it! 5-inchs worth of meat !)...thats ALL i've eaten, except
for 2 spoonfuls of KD, in 50 hours! I havn't slept in 61 hours...not
anymore then about 10 mintues of sleep when i passed out on the
keyboard in tears at 2AM wednesday morning!
Wow...i miss her!
Excuse me for being so far off topic, but i wanted to say what i did. If you feel the need, delete this.
Hey, as i said...VERY VERY off topic, but i want to let everyone here (Espically the AtlasRR people) know how i am.
I lost the girl that meant everything to me, my girlfriend of 4
months...featured here: www.siderodscass.741.com and some more
here: www.siderodspics.741.com
I know, i know, i know...i need to change the site to Ex.
Girlfriend, but i'm to depressed to do that right now...
After we broke up tuesday night on the phone, i went for a walk. I'm
already kinda sick, and i went out last night (after punching the
bathroom door while in tears) in the rain in shorts and a tee-shirt,
and walked about a mile along the track, sat down on the rail and
cryed. I then walked back along that mile, and tried to cross into
my field. I knew that there was once a fence there, but it appeared
to be gone, so i tried to cross it. BIG mistake! My left foot
stepped ontop of the fence (chickenwire and barbed razor wire)...i
thought it was solid ground and lifted my right foot, as it swung
forward, my left foot sank through, cutting my leg to pieces and
with that, my right foot caught, throwing me forward. Both ankles
locked and cracked...i sprained both of them. I landed hard on my
right wrist, fracturing it in 2 places. I came home in tears,
sitting in my room, shaking and in tears...cold but the heater was
on. I never felt so alone.
Then wednesday, while cutting a piece of pipe, the saw slipped, the
blade itself didn't cut me, but the brace across the top of the
hacksaw dropped hard against my hand and pressed it against the
vice. i got 2 razor-sharp cuts to the bone on my middle and ring
finger of my left hand. (2 cuts on each finger)
Normally i would know better then to place my hand as i did, but i
just wasnt thinking.
Now today, i'm talkin to Cassie...she still loves me like a friend, but nothing
more. That helped, a bit. Her's and my best friend is somewhat
fogivin me, but not entirely...hoepfully...that will change soon.
My other best friend i havn't talked to yet...her birthday is this
saturday...i hope she still wants me to go.
An update as well to the status of me eatting and sleeping...in the
last 50 hours, i have eaten 1 sandwich (with about 10 bucks worth of
meat on it! 5-inchs worth of meat !)...thats ALL i've eaten, except
for 2 spoonfuls of KD, in 50 hours! I havn't slept in 61 hours...not
anymore then about 10 mintues of sleep when i passed out on the
keyboard in tears at 2AM wednesday morning!
Wow...i miss her!
Excuse me for being so far off topic, but i wanted to say what i did. If you feel the need, delete this.